Paradise...Lost!

Have you ever woken up someday and wondered...
"I am looking for a meaning to live, and am in search of it. But why did I lose in the first place??! hmmmm"

Well, this is the feeling I have been waking up to these last two days.

Five a.m. never seemed more bright! Though the fog clouds everything, the cold chills your spine and darkness hides every imperfection, I see clearly - in to my heart now and realise, to gain paradise you need to lose it first.

Retrospecting my life story has given me the most valuable learning I could ever get - Paradise, in it's true sense is not in denying my actions, but it is in accepting my indiscretions and thanking the near ones, who inspired me and gave a reason to evolve in life. I don't want to think i have lost paradise. When few basic human actions will make me gain it.

Thanks, though a small word, weighs a lot when it is given with gratitude. So, here I am, not sad or happy, but totally awake with my learning and full of thanks to my loved ones, who made me realize the Paradise which i thought was lost, will become true if I think about my existence. For me to regain paradise, I just have to be! Because i am a Human and I live by being.

My lost love also taught me to wake up to reality and approach life emotionally with logic as the process tool.

Today, I am awake - in the true sense because today I feel the purpose in life and today i have finally found the courage to pen my thoughts and to proclaim my apologies and thanks to the loved ones, who made me realize that paradise lost is the essence to gain paradise.

Rajesh

It's never too late to submit my gratitude and apologize for my actions in life.